What If?

What if

what if everything I think I know

isn’t true at all?

could I begin to love?

would I allow myself to fall?

I see our future in your eyes

and wonder if you see the same

I’ve said I love you

do you know it’s true?

and is it true for you?

Can dreams be real?

Will we heal?

I yearn for us

I long to trust

to feel your heart 

beat with mine

to have our fingers 

intertwine

grow together,

pull us into more

yet I see me stumble

I watch me run

do you want me

is there room for more?

shall we forever be a fantasy

can I breathe?

can I be calm in the face of it all?

what if?
we were stronger together.
love meant leaping
and trusting
it's all going 
just the way it's meant to be
can I trust you?
do I trust me?
what if?
what's possible
If nothing I ever believed 
were true.

The Lies We Tell

The lies we tell

are mostly to ourselves

though they’re often so small

they don’t seem to be a lie at all

Are you the one?

Is this what I want?

Can I be, 

The person that YOU see?

I want us to work

perhaps I’m just a jerk

Perhaps I just don’t know

let’s see how it goes

but wait,

no no

whoa

you’re not who I loved at all

Not who we said we would be

now who is the you I see?

when did I begin

to wake up with a stranger?

to not foresee a future?

when did our paths begin to vary?

my heart grows ever wary

I fear I loved an apparition

a myth we once told

now what does the future hold?

can we continue in these conditions?

once we’re past infatuation

the pleasing of another

are we growing?

or do we smother?

do we truly love each other?

perhaps love means letting go.

knowing our hearts a little more

opening the door 

finding what we’re each yearning for

because I love you:

the you you truly are

not the one you hold yourself to be

the one who’s just to please me

Because I see the you that you’ve become

and the me that’s now here

thank you for helping me to grow

it’s time for us to go